I search for the resolution.

I'm alive,
And I don't need a witness
To know that I survived.
I'm not looking for forgiveness,
I just need light,
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution,
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution.

Christmas came and went with a snap of my fingers. I didn't feel in the spirit at all. I was more in the spirit back in September than I was on Christmas Day.

So here I am, Monday, December 29th 2008. I am 17 years and 352 days old. I'm sitting in the same Pokemon sweatshirt and maroon sweatpants that I've worn as pajamas for the entire Christmas break. I don't think life is all it's cracked up to be.

In three days, it will be 2009. I wouldn't care another passing of a year if 2008 hadn't been the best and worst year of my life. And I wouldn't care about 2009 if it wasn't my graduating year.

So in order to put some order back into my life, I guess I should do something cliche like this:

New Year's Resolutions

1) Focus enough on school to get at least B-'s in everything, so my parents don't disown me.
2) Start caring about my future more.
3) Either let go and forget once and for all, or just say it.

As I was quoted in the school newspaper, "I make New Year's resolutions sometimes, but I either end up forgetting them or not following them."

So who really cares?

I don't.

Life is life, and I really don't see any resolution for it right now.